My life story

Remember this date?

We take stuffs so forgranted that sometimes we lose those stuffs then come to regret.

But people make mistakes.

Then when we do, later in life. We would have this feeling.

That we actaully suck by treating it like that.

Well, most people do.

Take me for example.

A long and steady relationship just end like that.

With no reason, just because i need a break.

If you were my stage, you will know what i'm saying.

For those who is not yet at this stage.

Treasure and cherish what you have now.

Because when it's lost, you will know how pain you would feel in your heart.

Those memories is gonna be with me till i kick the bucket.

Stop thinking about stuffs like this just ain't me.

I don't just forget about someone.

They stick with me through my life.

But there won't be another special someone in my life anymore.

To my point of view.

I can never reach somebody's expectations.

Because i'm just that type of guy that girls doesn't fall for.

I'm ignorant.

I'm stubborn.

I'm ugly.

I'm not rich.

I can't give her whatever she wants.

I have a fucked up attitude.

I have a fucked up life.

I have a fucked up family.

I have 2 dogs.

But despite that.

Like any other guys.

I fall for girls who are beautiful.

I fall for girls with special attitude.

I fall for girls, because i wanna love.

But it will never come.

Because of all my reasons.

Girls.

Just don't fall for a guy like me.

For the next person who accepts my life.

I promise you.

Even when i can't afford to give you anything.

I'll still give you my life.

My heart.

My dedication.

My soul.

My love.

I hope someone like that, can actaully jump into my life and carry on walking the path with me.

Marcus,

19/06/2011

This was the places we went.

I totally doubt that you would remember all this places we've been.

But there's words in my mind that i would want to share with you.

Although we've only been together for awhile.

But those times are memories.

And the reason why it's memories is because it has pass.

Dragging on my own suffering isn't gonna help with anything but add on to my pain.

I'm gonna change the way i am.

I'm gonna live up to every expectations any girl could ask for.

Because i know,

People like you are nothing but gold diggers.

And people out there deserves me much more then you do.

So you are nothing but a past.

Nothing but a memory.

Nothing but pain and sadness.

I hope all goes well for you :)

Because afterall, you're a girl.

And girls need happiness more then guys do.

Now time for blogging.

Sometimes, memories become dreams and remind you how sweet you've been.

And those dreams remind you why you shouldn't be hurt.

Why you shouldn't feel pain.

Because, our eyes are the best camera.

We capture images every single second.

And those images tells you how lucky you are to be once loved by him / her.

We should be contented with what they gave us.

I'm changing.

Because times like this happens.

And i'm gonna prevent it from happening again.

You guys should too, because there is really no point adding pain into yourself any longer.

Change. And love another more then how you love him / her.

And to the special someone i know.

We all fall sometimes.

But in the end, we stand up and clean ourselves.

And then carry on walking into the future.

So please. Cheer up and carry on life like no other.

Be happy and smile.

For everyday is a gift.

Marcus,

15/9/2011

This, is me.

Yeap, i know i'm ugly.

But using this smile, i've seen many different types of people.

People who just use you as a tool.

And people who just takes you as amusment.

Those who only talks to you when they're bored.

People, who we call.

Friends.

Friends are people who you are closer to then any person.

Friends, are there when you need them.

Friends, gives you their shoulder then you're sad.

Gives you their listening ear when you're angry.

Be there with you, through joyful and bad times.

Now tell me. Which one are your friends.

I know, not many people reads this blog.

But i'll continue blogging, as ideas doesn't just runs out in my mind.

Tell your friends.

Read this blog. And tell them this is how you feel about them.

Backstabbers can burn in hell.

Back to blogging.

I ran into some trouble lately.

I don't wanna say names so lets call them apple and pear.

So apple and pear were sitting outside of their class.

While waiting for class to begin, they use this "Stare"

And looked at me like i owe them a thousand dollors.

So, i stared back. Because nobody likes to be stared at. Right?

Then i walked away.

Being unhappy, apple and pear came to my class and looked for me.

And there was the time where all trouble came.

They wanted to punch me in the face.

But i guess. just don't have the balls to.

haha, BUT. i'm alright.

Let's give them some pride shall we?

People bully you because they don't have better things to do.

So why not stand up for yourself.

And pity them.

Because everybody is born with rights in the world.

Being strong doesn't makes you any richer right?

So stand up. And stand up proud.

Although i'm not an expert but.

Pride. The only thing you gotta have inside of you.

Peace out dudes.

SHORT POST! :D

GIN TAY! YOU BETTER DON'T EMO ALREADY.

MY STORY MORE EMO. BUT YOU SEE ME NOT EMOING RIGHT~

SO SMILE AND SEE A BETTER TOMORROW! :D

PEACE OUT ^^v

That fool.

I was a fool. Thinking that i would actaully be with you forever.

Now i know. Nothing can ever last forever.

I took stuffs forgranted.

I didn't put my effort into love.

I didn't give you what you wanted.

Thats what you say to me.

Imagine how much pain i'm going though just because you said these :)

I don't blame you for not looking me in the eye.

And i can't blame you for leaving either.

I'm just another guy, who can't give you a secured life.

But how could you?

Leaving somebody without even explaining what happen?

I'm gonna say my heart out right now.

And i don't care how many people are gonna read and comment on me.

I was there, whenever you needed me.

I tried my very best to give you the best.

I saved all my pocket money, just because i'm scared of losing you.

And i thought. By giving you what i can will make you stay.

Well i guess i'm wrong right?

You said to me that you love me and i believed it.

But i look back now.

Those words are nothing but trash.

You are a rubbish.

A used tissue paper.

A unwashed bowl.

A empty wallet.

A stringless guitar.

A spoilt iron.

Because you just can't make my life right when i'm doing my best to give you the best.

God was i wrong to even think that you loved me.

Because girl.

Replacements are easy to find.

But the right partner is not.

I hope you guys break up and you die asap.

Evil i may be.

But pain is what i feel.

Anger is what i get.

I'm gonna find myself the right love.

I'm gonna give her the world.

I'm gonna be the best of myself.

I will still love her like there's no tomorrow.

And she's gonna have one thing that i didn't give you.

And it's

My heart.

12 September 2011.

Marcus.

Fuck you bitch.