My life story

Hey! Guess what? :)

When i thought that my life was going to be better.

I get rejected haha.

I'm just saying that,

Whatever you do, keep what you think you will need in the future.

Life can't get any worst then mine.

So be happy and smile all the time.

Do you know that guys are actaully the same as girls?

But some guys ruins our lifes by being assholes.

I mean, we have emotions too.

We put 100% into love as well.

So why are we so lefted out?

I actaully don't go for good looking girls.

I just need a girl who is neat and presentable.

Thats all i ask for and what do i get?

Nothing but pain.

I realised. That i'm always making wrong decisions.

Untill this point where it's starting to feel pain.

But who knows?

Maybe it'll be better tomorrow :)

this might be a boring post for ome of you guys..

Sometimes we have everything in our hands.

But we still choose to give it up.

But, you youself don't even know the reason why.

I did the same mistake.

I gave up the world because of no reason,

I spent two years regreting and untill now, i'm still wondering how to get her back.

But i know, sometimes when we lose something we can get it back.

Once? Twice?

But not the 3 times in a roll.

I'm pretty confused myself.

I still cant forget about this girl.

But i think i like another.

My mind tells me to go for it.

But my guts tells me that i can never reach one's expectations.

Plus, i don't even know whether that girl likes me or not.

I can't be like " Hey, i like you"

Or " Hey, wanna be mine?"

It's just totally out of the qeustion.

But what i know is.

I whould give up everything

Be at my best at every place.

Because, i know when i'm in love.

Stuffs like this happens.

Not just to me. But to everyone.

And now, i know.

There is no point rushing like a crazy bull towards love.

I should be naturing the feelins between both of us.

But then. I look myself in the mirror.

And then i said to myself.

What can i actaully do to bring that feeling up?

There is actaully nothing, but to hang on.

I've been sucking out energy from everybody close to me.

My face tells everybody that i'm weak.

YES, I AM WEAK.

But i will be strong, when she's mine.

I will prove to everybody.

That i will become stronger.

And till then.

Peace out..

FINALLY!!!!

Getting to know that you're in love again just feels great.

But i'm not sure about what she thinks about me though.

But i'm sure i'm gonna make things right.

I'm gonna make everything worth living for.

I'm gonna do my part, as a guy on earth.

I'm gonna treat her right.

Nothing has ever become this important.

I'm not sure myself if i'm just desprate or i'm really in love.

But if given the chance.

I'll be over the moon.

Stuffs didn't work out this week.

Everything seems ever so boring.

Plus i'm having a exam next week on monday.

Wish me luck..

Didn't get to see much of my friends.

Sad life i have.

Blogging time.

I always thought that guys should be the one.

Giving in, putting 100% effort into every relationships.

Being there for his girlfriend and listen to everything she gotta say.

Giving her whatever he has and expect nothing in return.

But i came to realise.

In a relationship, it doesn't just concerns about one.

It's both, both partys should be listening.

Giving in their 100%

But i guess. People like me are not lucky enough to exprience that :).

Not lucky enough to feel what it's like to feel safe.

I wasn't always given a listening ear when i'm angry.

Didn't always get a shoulder when i'm sad.

Don't always get loved when i love.

Don't always get attentions when i achive.

But, i got over it.

Not everyone is born with perfect beauty nor attitude.

Not everyone can get what they want in life.

I guess you'll just have to learn to face life and move on.

One of the reason why i'm blogging.

I can tell you guys that,

I don't have anybody to turn to when i have so much to say in my mind.

Whenever you have a fight with your gf/bf.

Give it a thought.

Do you actually want this?

Do you want it to end so soon?

If you don't then just give in for once.

It's not gonna hurt, infact. She's gonna love you even more.

I'm not a love expert.

I'm not a handsome dude.

I'm not a rich dude.

I have rough hands.

I have rough voice.

I'm not a build person.

I get sick easily.

I get pimples all the time.

My hands gets sweaty when i'm scared.

My feet stinks.

I don't have double eyelids.

I have tiny eyes.

I'm not talented.

I suck at studies.

I suck at spelling.

I came from a half broken family.

I have a hot temper.

I get sad and emo easily.

I go high for no reasons.

But, despite all this.

I'm still willing to try my best to give you what you need.

My rough hands can hold you tight.

My sweaty hands can give you warmth.

My rough voice can brighten up your day.

My not buildness can be builded.

My hot temper can protact you.

My sad and emo shows you how much i love you.

My high can bring you up high too.

My stupidness towards studies can improve with you.

My tiny eyes can be made a joke for you.

And with you.

I may just become a love expert.

I'm willing to do this.

Just because,

I think i like you.

I can't imagine what i'm gonna do if i love you babe.

Till here for now.

Hold her tight, and never let go.

Marcus,

2/10/2011 2.32A.M